Yesterday I severed all ties with him... Super down... Moreover, I was and am still affected by her non-reply. I expected her to reply me but she didn't. I thought she would shower me with some kind of concern but she didn't. Did she deliberately try to draw a line with me because of our relationship status? Is it because she doesn't want me to rely too heavily on her because our relationship is a professional one and not a personal one? Haiz... After all, I am not her child. I also don't belong to her church. I ought not to expect so much from her... Who am I to her any way? But I really thought she would reply me... After all, I seldom communicate to people how I truly feel. And she has been the one who encouraged me to do that. Then why didn't she reply? Shouldn't she encourage me? Especially since putting myself under the limelight does not come second nature to me. Haiz... I wonder how she views me and I hope to know if she views me as a friend or client and how important I am to her. But she is so much older than me. It is very difficult for me to ask her. Besides, my yearnings for her may fade and it may not be so important after all...